the life of hips

After 305 entries, I've moved

Dance chicken, dance.

Yeah yeah yeah. I never update. I never have a reason to update. Nashville is good though. I love being here. It's weird though, I came back to it expectingit to be the same Nashville that I had left. It isn't. It is nothing like I thought it would be. I don't really talk to most of my friends from high school. They don't care to call me, so I see no reason as to why I should call them. It seems that the few people I have seen this summer have been people I didn't hang out with in high school, but they make somewhat of an effort to contact me, so I know they somewhat care to see me, or at least have nothing better to do. I work a lot. I spend somewhere between 35-45 hours a week at Sonic. I only work days though. I'm thinking of getting a second job to have at nighttime since I have nothing to do it. That way I'll always be busy, and I'll be ballin' when I get back to Memphis. I miss Gibson's. And the girls. I miss you girls so much. There's no one here that I can talk about boys with and be all girly. If I had a crush, I'd have no one to tell. It makes me sad. But it's only like three months til we are all back together, and then we can all go guy hunting together in Memphy. Donuts and boys here I come. Summer staffing is going well so far. I got the 8th grade girls. That makes me super duper happy. I don't know if they really like me yet, but we haven't had a lot of time to really hang out with them. I love the other summer staffers though. They are all great people and I am so looking forward to us all chilling and our weekly trips to Satco. Mmm, I could really go to Satco right about now. Or some creme brulee. I've got concerns right now, and I think creme brulee could make me forget about them. Or a chicken salad sandwich from Great Harvest. That's what I'll do on Tuesday. Go to Great Harvest. The guy will hit on me, so that'll make me feel good about myself. Yay for boys! I hate boys. I really don't like dealing with them at all. I'm not a big fan of people in general at the moment. A lot of my relationships are confusing me. Everything is weird. I don't know. My second job might be at a tanning salon. If that isn't funny, then I don't know what is. My Beth came to Nashville this weekend. We went shopping then out to El Palenque. Mmmm. My Tammy is coming home soon. I think. I don't really know though. I haven't seen her in forever. I miss her. When she comes home, I'll have a friend, so I'm excited. She and I have a plan to work out together. We both miss being skinny. But we'll see how that goes. I could be putting all of this into paragraphs, but I really don't want to. Deal with it. I don't like it when people don't like me. That makes me very unsettled. I realized that this weekend. If someone doesn't like me, I can't handle it. It upsets me more than anything. Even if I don't know them. So please like me, and if you don't like me, then let me know, so we can talk about our differences, and so I can know where I need to improve. I love God. He's crazy, and works in the most mysterious ways. Barry called me the other day. He's weird. Aw, I heard from Virginia today. It was exciting. I miss her. Diane too. I need a new cell phone. That is going to be my next and last big purchase of the summer. Today we had our church picnic. I had a hot dog, and a snowcone, and too much cotton candy. There will be a few pictures of that when I find my cord to connect my camera. It's really hot in my room, and I'm sleepy. The picnic was kinda fun. I liked the people I hung out with for the most part, so that made it enjoyable. Part of me still felt like I was in the youth group though, and that part was not enjoyable. Modesty was not the policy of the day. I need to clean my room. I really want to go and climb trees, and you should come with me. I've got to start writing in here more often for all you readers out there, sorry. I've started writing in my real journal more though, and that's like, my personal stuff. I just talked to God in the middle of writing this, and some of those relationships that are a little stressful, I just gave them to Him, and I'm cool with 'em now. I've really got to listen to God more. He knows how to handle everything. And I don't. He's cool. You should get to know him better. I should get to know him better. Okay, well hopefully this update was long enoughto satisfy all of you. Our dog visitors are barking and it is bothering me. Okay, flossing time, but I'll leave you with what movies I've seen within the past few days...

Another day, another two movies...

Today I watched five movies I had never seen before.
I'm going to be like sister and put pictures of them.



Anyone have any suggestions on other movies I need to see?

Happy Birthday to you Higdon.
Watch out ladies, this heartthrob is 17.

I want to be with a guy like you
So uncomplicated, so in tune


What's all the fuss about?
Are you sure you wanna find out?
Cause once you know the truth
You might wish you'd walked away


I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me


I've done the damage, the damage is done
I pray to God that I'm the damaged one


I can grow
In spite of all you know
You might not recognize me tomorrow
Yes I can change
In spite of all they say
Become something strange and beautiful
Like joy, like joy


Lost you once you were hard to find
Got you back you didn't live like mine
Thought we were falling apart but you make me feel so pretty
Like you did, like you did
Like before, like before
Like we will, like we will
Be doin' it once more





I'm wide awake in the dark
Tryin' to figure out where you are
Always goin' nowhere
'Fraid of goin' somewhere
Somewhere's a place in your heart

Sometimes when I think about you
Why you're always running away
Sitting in your car
Changing who you are
Drowning the thoughts of you like in the music

Scared the lights will turn green
You'll have to be seen
You'll be like anybody else
Scared the lights will turn red
You're stuck in your head
You can't run it to even her
How you gonna get through the year
You can't

Playin' on the sides of the night
Too many people want too many things
And you ?? to forget

Scared the lights will turn green
You'll have to be seen
You'll be like anybody else
Scared the lights will turn red
You're stuck in your head
Too scared to commit to even her
How you gonna make it through

You're always listenin'
You're always listenin'
You're always listenin'
To yourself

You're always thinkin'
You're always thinkin'
You knew what everybody else
Should do with their lives

I'm wide awake in the dark
Tryin' to figure out where you are
Always goin' nowhere
'Fraid of goin' somewhere
And somewhere's a place in your heart
Somewhere's a place in your heart

Scared the lights will turn green
You'll have to be seen
You'll be like anybody else
Scared the lights will turn red
You're stuck in your head
You can't run it to even her

Scared the lights will turn green
You'll have to be seen
You'll be like anybody else
Scared the lights will turn red
You're stuck in your head
Too scared to commit to even her
How you gonna get through the year


I heart you Liz Phair...

Lindsey and Beth, come to Nashville and cuddle with me.

Whole lotta pictures are here.
I went to New Orleans for a week. I had beignets. Met an indian. Saw fun things.

I turned 18 Monday. Opened presents, had cake and creme brulee. Mmmm. Creme brulee.... Anyway, we went bowling. Opened presents. Went to Steak n Shake. Took pictures. Fun times, fun times.

Here ya go.


Mmm... beignets...

Tom, apply here.

My new indian friend.

How do you think I got such big hips?

Powdered sugar in the face

We are all such good dancers

After driving on the interstate in my mom's convertible

Molly n Tom

Mmm. creme brulee...

Thanks Tom, I almost forgot how to tie my own shoes.

Molly

Tom

Scout

Rachel

Jen

Jen, Nan, Rachel

Eric

Scout n Stacey came to visit Molly!!

Stacey

Nan n Molly

Emily n Molly

Tom, myself, and cousin

My game face

Another one...

Eric's feet

Yay for memphis friends!

Yay for steak n shake!

and again!

Yay for new pictures from the plane ride to New Orleans! I heart clouds.

Thank you to all of you who made this a terrific day. It truly was great.
Thanks for the camera, the room, the loofahs, the clothes that were already mine, the creme brulee, the flip flop thing, the necklace, the purse, the picture frame, the dollars, and the heavenly pillow. Thank you to my parents and siblings and family for loving me for the past 18 years, no matter how forced it may have been at times. Thank you to all of my friends for loving me no matter how long each of you have known me, whether it's been 6 years or 6 months.

You have all shaped me in to the person I am today, and for that I thank you. I thank you for each part of each of you that I carry with me each day. I thank you for the things you do that I have integrated into myself. I thank you all for your little quirks that annoy me sometimes, because that makes up who you are, and I love you for that.

I love you all. You have meant so much to me. I am so blessed.

Thank you for the greatest 18 years I could have ever dreamt of having.

Yay! Today will be good!
So far, thanks to Tom, Tammy, Eric, Jesse, Nan, Deshaun, Joebutler. Y'all are the greatest!

Well, I'm back.

Things are...

off to new orleans til saturday.

I know that you're going to miss me posting. I do it so often, I don't know what you'll do with your time.

You'll miss me, and I'll miss you though. That's fo' sho'.

Everyone have a safe and great week.

I love you all.

Today was a nice day.

Time to go to sleepysleep so I can wake up early and accomplish something with my day.

At least I hope I accomplish something.

Ew, and I have to work. Double ew.

I want today to happen again, only for it to be longer.

That's possible, riiight?

My legs were almost entirely covered in primer until about 20 minutes ago. I primed my room last night, so that my mom could paint it today while I was at work. It's all pretty and stuff now, so that is exciting. I'll be sure to post pictures as soon as I get everything in its proper place.
My legs itch. Do you think it's because of all the mineral spirits I scrubbed my legs with?
The good thing is that my legs are real soft now, because I had to scrub so hard.
I'm real bored here in Nashville. I've been working too much, I'm going to cut down on the work time, and quit one Sonic. I need more me time, and more friends time. Will you be my friend?

I want to hold hands. And cuddle. And get a good hug.

My legs are so friggen soft right now. I should win a prize.

You should buy me a prize. My birthday is in 8 days. I'll be old enough to... buy tobacco, lottery tickets, porn, and vote. Ooooh, and go to the Wildhorse!!! Who wants to go? We're all goin' that Monday night. Come!

I miss all my Memphy kids. I miss all my Nashville kids that aren't here right now.

I go to New Orleans on Tuesday I think. Keep me in those thoughts of yours.

It's late, I'm sleepy, and I've still got to blowdry my hair, so I better get going.

I want someone to cuddle with me.